pg1-100 for BELL JAR~

Wow, i can't believe people actually read my posts (especially those who read my super duper long posts):D
Anyways, I just finished reading the first 100 pages of the Bell jar (but i should hurry up and finish the book, because i have to return it to the library in few days).
In my opinion, this book is not as interesting as My Sister's keeper. The Bell Jar is more depressing and confusing. Half the time i was reading the book, i didn't understand what was happening, but there were some few moments in the book where i was deeply in to it.
So, some things from the first 100 pages that i learned was about Esther (main character). Esther is a very peculiar character. At the moment she is at New york, with 11 or 12 more girls who won an internship there. Esther is the type of girl who doesn't know where she belongs. Some times she loves spending time with Doreen (who is like a party girl?) but then there are other times where she depises her and likes to play with innocent Besty.
Overall, Esther makes me very confused.